   
Hey Every1,
First off I am new to Perfect Weight America. Before you ask I am putting off starting until the 21st maybe 22nd because I will be preparing this weekend for the second shot of the steroidal epidurals.
I will start by telling you a little about me and then let you know the issues I need prayer, encouragement and support for as I prepare to start the program next week.
I’m a 42-year-old Christian female living in Lakeside, CA with my DH (referring to my dear husband) and two fur kids Duke Nanook a 12 year old Alaskan Malamute and Ms. Kitty a stray cat I took in that I found out belonged to a neighbor and was later given to me. I have not hobbies but I do have interests. I do enjoy reading my Bible and or watching Christian TV when life, pain or errands/outing haven’t interrupted. Other things I enjoy are writing poetry, photography, creating images and or using photos to create backgrounds and images such as signature tags for emails and some times I use images with no copywrite that are available to be save to my hard drive to use as I like and singing, mostly worship songs either Karaoke or finding songs in my WMP and singing along and when I want to sing something else I crank up the Karaoke player (VanBosco’s Karaoke Player) and sing any song that I have in my files of which I have Christian, Country, Oldies Rock N Roll, Elvis only and Easy Listening.
I joined PWA in hopes of gaining tools to eat right and lose weight with the physical condition I have at the moment and have had since November 7th of 2008 after over working my back which led to me not being able to return to work. This physical condition makes doing much of anything difficult which I have recently received a complete diagnosis; reason for, the pain in my back. It is spinal stenosis a combination of arthritic deterioration in the disks between the L4 & L5 vertebrae and one of those disks (L4 )protruding into the nerve in my spine which causes pain in my lower back, sciatic nerve and legs and to top it off when T.O.M (time of month) comes for a visit I have awful cramps that most times double me over and make me tired which along with the meds I take for pain put me to sleep which means I am tired and or in bed most of the day and up late at night into the early morning and some times tired but don’t go to bed until my DH who snores to the point of not being able to block him out even with earplugs.
I don’t get a lot if any support, encouragement and no prayer from my DH so usually with the exception of friends outside my home I feel discouraged. The discouragement including being made to feel or feeling useless, worthless, of no help and hopeless and even though I know God is the only one that can make me feel I am useful, of worth, helpful and hopeful not having my DH beside me I feel I am missing 1 side of the puzzle to my life. He doesn’t feel I need to be concerned about the way I eat, my weight or anything that has to do with taking better care of myself and even feels that even with the present pain levels I have been experiencing I should still be working which I know others can work with any amount of pain but I am a not pain tolerance woman. I never have accepted pain and when it comes I am no good to anyone because I move slower and I’m more fatigued than I am when I am feeling 100%. Since November bending, stooping, walking and sitting are painful so when the pain specialist gave me the complete prognosis he also prescribed pain meds that when I began taking them lessened my pain considerably but I still felt pain when I over did it thinking that I wouldn’t feel it later.
How does someone like me do this program with no inside (family, spousal) support, encouragement especially prayer who lives with varying levels of pain 24 hours a day 7 days a week at the same time getting results. I need to know I will have support in the future when I start next week but for now the only support I have is God, Jesus, Holy Spirit and my own determination which should be enough but without my DH verbally encouraging me to think for my Perfect Weight, I will be forced to eat what I don’t want to eat or go without including getting the supplements I need, get little to no help cleansing.
The one thing I have done is boil water so I get the impurities out of it before I put it in a container (glass) and drink it as my only drink with the exception of a squeeze or two of lemon. Is that permitted with the program? The only other thing I have done is start making a salad for dinner when I can’t buy the other healthy ingredients for the meals in my meal planner. The one thing I hate is my DH not being willing to go shopping at a health food store like Henry’s or Trader Joe’s so I need ideas for eating healthy with what I have so I can’t make the excuse why I can’t eat healthy I don’t have the money for the food to purchase the ingredients mentioned. I plan on not making excuses for anything but if I can’t exercise I am not going to beat myself up over it.
I don’t care where in the world the prayer, support and encouragement comes from because any is better than none. I forgot to tell you I love to make new friends and when I meet people I don’t consider them stranger only friends that I am meeting for the first time. I always tell everyone I meet, I have never met a stranger because everyone in this world is a potential friend.
Any volunteers? |